Wednesday, October 22, 2008

On a shelf

I've recently done something that I now regret. I always say there are no regrets - just lessons learned; which is a true statement. However, in this case - I'm pretty sure I regret it. I've initiated a conversation with someone and now wish I hadn't. He's a great guy, but he has an issue of being friends with the opposite sex. He's in it all or nothing basically. So now, I think that since I started the conversation, he thinks I mean more than I really do.

I was asking people for thoughts on the subject. CJ who has been trough this with me the first time with this guy - said "sometimes you just have to leave them on the shelf." And ya know, I think she's right. Why is it that we constantly have to bring up stuff from the past, no matter how painful it was? I mostly do this with relationships I've had. Is it because I miss them... or the idea? I think it's the idea... and I hate that. I want to be content in my singleness for the season that God has placed me here. Why can't I just leave them on the shelf? So... my messenger is getting a little fall cleaning... people who send me back 10 paces are out. Those who encourage and support are in.

Pondering a season of change... again.

1 comment:

Meg Winter said...

I think a part of the reason you reopened the past is because you wanted to know if there is something there or not. I know that's what I did with my friendship with you know who. And I think you should put it on the shelf and let God handle this one. That's what I did. I know our situations are exactly the same but they are similar in the fact of the past. Maybe the reason we bring up painful memories from the past is so that we try to make them more positive memories. I don't know about you but I like to have peace with everyone and when I don't have that, it hurts! It hurts even more when you cannot make peace with it. Anyway - great blog! Sometimes we just have to let go which is very hard!