Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Titus 2 Tuesday


What have you learned from a woman this week (or ever)?

This week I'm going to share a bit about my mom. My mom has lived her life in Nebraska, raising kids - me and my three brothers. For the most part my mom and I get along. For the remainder of the time, I'm either annoyed at her, she's annoyed at me, or something's happening. Since I was 5 years old, it's always been my mom, my brother, and me. When all these other people started entering our lives, it got... well... weird.

The thing I love about my mom is that she's absolutely hilarious. When I look at my parents, I can definitely see where I get my sense of humor. She's a strong woman who's dealt with a lot in her life. She tries to be the rock, when I really know that she has to have times of break down. There has been one time in my life when I was all consumed emotional and my mom was there to catch me.

To this day, I don't ever recall my mom telling me she's proud of me or that I look beautiful. She always finds something to critique me on - whether it's that my hair is curly (in her eyes, this is not 'fixing' it), or whether it's that I didn't wear enough makeup. Is it the job of a mom to critique?

My mommy wishlist: Some days I wish my mom understood me. I wish she wasn't jealous of me having a life, that she never did. I wish she would tell me that she loved me - without me having to say it first.


At the end of the day, she's my mom and I love her.


Shanda said...

I'm sure this was a difficult one for you to write.

I think it is a natural tendency for moms to be harder on their daughters and dads to be harder on their sons. It is something we have to consciously work on in our own household.

I will pray that God would give you the desires of your heart with your, "Mommy Wishlist." But even if she is unable to provide those things for you - He is...


Anonymous said...

I think you're beautiful inside and out :-)


CJ said...

I'm not your mom, but I am proud of you. :) In the almost 5 years I have known you I have seen you grow in a lot of ways...including a real confidence in who you are. You are a wonderful person with a beautiful heart and spirit...even with the gift of sarcasm! :P